I Make Myself Sick

I make myself sick
When the will to keep going evaporates
I make myself lie
When the truth becomes unacceptable
I make myself quiet
When every sound is a call to arms
When every word is the tip of a blade
When every heartbeat is a betrayal
I make myself a hunted beast
With self-inflicted scars
I make myself a fairy tale
With wings but with no moral
I make myself old
When I confuse youth with age
And action with accomplishment
I make myself immortal
Then I curse the weight of time
Above it all
My light-hearted fairy princess
I make myself something that isn’t me
When I forget I love you

Published by mikepowernyc

Named one of New York's Best Emerging Poets 2019, my poetry chapbook The New Normal was published by Analog Submission Press. My novel The Zoo was published by Cacoethes Publishing House. Other poems and short stories have appeared in Subterranean Blue Poetry, The Journal of Microfiction, and Sick Lit Magazine, among others. Other works include a staged reading of my play Digging Up John Barrymore, performed by Dreamcatcher Entertainment, and five albums of original music recorded with my band Late Model Humans.

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