Suicide

Suicide has been on my mind a lot lately. Not my own, fortunately. The protagonist of the novel I’m writing is the daughter of a woman who commits suicide.

In the news, Tom Schweich, a Republican candidate for governor of Missouri killed himself last month, allegedly due to a “whisper campaign” about his Jewish heritage. As if that reasoning wasn’t bizarre enough, yesterday Schweich’s former spokesman, Spence Jackson, also killed himself.

Then there was co-pilot who flew a plane into a mountain. What he was actually comitting was murder, but I bet he thought of it as suicide. People can be very selfish like that.

All this put me in mind of one of my old songs. Lest anyone consider this a cry for help, I wrote this song in 1985. So it’s certainly not an urgent one. For its 30th birthday I thought I’d take it out and show it a good time. Try to cheer it up. It’s been a little depressed lately. Singin’ the blues.

The Ace of Diamonds and the Eight of Spades
Dead man’s hand for a gambling age
Suicide
Suicide
Sometimes I feel like I want to commit suicide

I don’t like razors and I don’t like guns
But I don’t like living a life that’s no fun
Suicide
Suicide
Sometimes I feel like I want to commit suicide

I drink too much and do too many drugs
One day you’ll come home and find me on the rug

Suicide
Suicide
Sometimes I feel like I want to commit suicide

Don’t cry for me, ’cause I won’t care
If there’s something better, I’ll see you there

Suicide
Suicide
Sometimes I feel like I want to commit suicide

Published by mikepowernyc

Named one of New York's Best Emerging Poets 2019, my poetry chapbook The New Normal was published by Analog Submission Press. My novel The Zoo was published by Cacoethes Publishing House. Other poems and short stories have appeared in Subterranean Blue Poetry, The Journal of Microfiction, and Sick Lit Magazine, among others. Other works include a staged reading of my play Digging Up John Barrymore, performed by Dreamcatcher Entertainment, and five albums of original music recorded with my band Late Model Humans.

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